Someday I’ll get to where I want. But for now, I just feel like a failure because I still haven’t achieved what I thought I would.
And I don’t know exactly what that is, but I just know I’m not there yet. I don’t really have an specification of where I want to be or what I want to do, so I guess it makes it kind of hard. I’m three semesters away from a Bachelors- if I had chosen a degree.
Buuuuut I still haven’t.
So why waste the money to go when I don’t know what I want to do?
And besides. THAT choice is huge!!! And I’m so jealous of the people that know from Day 1 what they want to do.
They want to be a nurse, so they go to college for four years, get hired on at a hospital, and work in that field for the rest of their lives.
I’m not that lucky.
I love so many things. And I take deep interest in nearly everything (NOT MATH AND NOT ACCOUNTING) that I study. I love music and I love journalism. I’ve always wanted to be a writer, but I also wanted to be a Park Ranger and there was a stint where I thought Social Work would be a good fit. Oh, but I also really like studying science, but I don’t want to shoot too high because I don’t want to be a damn engineer or biologist. And I really like teaching others so I played school a lot as a child. I would love being a teacher! But the pay is so awful… And then I also wanted to be a Psychologist but the school was too long for my taste. So I thought Radiology would be cool, but ehhh, would it be cool for FORTY YEARS? So then I chose business because that is what everyone who doesn’t know what they want to do, does. Annnnd my first semester hit me with Economics and Accounting and I was like OOOKAY, business isn’t something I can really pursue and love. So now I’m waiting for another whim.
My interests change too much for a degree.
But unfortunately, I feel like a woman has to have a degree to make even close to a man.
I have a two year degree and 3 years at my job and I still make $2 less than my fiancé who has no college education.
College is somewhat of a scam. I don’t buy into that big of a monetary investment without having a secure plan and enjoy what I’m doing.
I’m hoping I’ll stumble upon something someday and know that it’s what I’m supposed to do. I just haven’t found what that is yet.
I’ve got time.
I wouldn’t say I set my level of success to having a degree though. It’s something I’d like to do, but I can also see myself having a good enough resume to advance in life without needing a degree. That just takes time, but military background and three years in an advanced pricing role at a food distribution company looks good.
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