I reflect a lot. I write about my reflection and devotion to that on here often.
But one thing I’ve noticed about the last year:
It’s changed my methodology around reflection.
I used to rely a lot on the feedback I received from others. I naturally surround myself with honest people that will tell me when I’m not acting myself or when I’m wrong. I like that. I try to take that advice seriously.
That was a life we knew before the pandemic forever changed the workplace and how we conduce relationships with others.
I work from home three days a week and on the two days I’m actually in the office, there is hardly much conversation. No interaction other than Zoom for the most part.
So now I’ve got to try to internalize a true perception of myself while also taking account of how I make look on someone else’s screen.
Did I mention, with no feedback for reference?
Business in this manner makes me feel like I’m only going through the motions and don’t have much control over my own career.
So I think both personally and professionally, I need to really sit down with myself and think about how others may feel when we interact. I know I can do better at home; I’ve let a few too many curse words slip now that we’ve got a talking and brilliant toddler. And I can always do better at listening to understand Dylan, rather than thinking of my response to what he’s saying. We’re pretty upfront about everything when needed.
Anywhooo, the overall gist is that self-reflection is hard, especially after feeling the effects of a global pandemic. So don’t put too much pressure on yourself when thinking about how much better you could be, but rather consider how many things you are ROCKIN. Cut yourself some slack – EVERYONE is under their own form of stress right now. We’re all trying to adjust to something new. We’ll make it through it.
But it’s okay because I’m currently snuggled up with my daughter watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. I always loved Goofy growing up.
Sometimes I’m exhausted and wanting to be left alone, but once I take a breath and think about the bigger picture, I’m back on my mom A-game. We all have those days- hell, maybe even weeks! Being a human is hard and no one truly has it figured out.
But life is good and I’m embracing my time on this earth. I’ve been trying to live my life without worrying about the things that I don’t yet need to worry about.
It’s been a minute since I did one of my end-of-day reflections. There’s no time like the present.
I was previously working on another post, but it was getting too deep and required too much thought for this late at night. So I clicked SAVE DRAFT on that baby and came to write something a bit lighter.
Let’s just do a quick tally of some of the things I learned this week:
My cat will hangout with me while I work from home if I close my bedroom door so she’s forced to be in the same room as me (She hates it when I do this; she’ll sleep on my bed all day long if I leave the door open).
Scentsy products don’t actually keep their scent for that long.
I feel less confident when I feel like I’m being overlooked. I see myself through a lens of high expectation, so I want to feel appreciated, listened to, and capable. I tend to shut down when I feel like my worth is being reduced, because I see myself as an amazing employee.
Kids grow up QUICK, man. My daughter is 2 going on 16. The amount of attitude that a 2 year old is capable of flaunting would make your head spin. She brings the heat sometimes.
Sometimes you’ve got to set one goal really high and take it really slow. Success is not measured by how fast you get there, just as long as you get there.
Being pregnant with your first child is much easier. Chasing a toddler while pregnant with the second is a lot harder!
These two-day weekends just aren’t cutting it. Time goes by too fast.
We didn’t do a whole lot today, but that is just the glory of Sundays. We played around the house in the morning and by 10 o’clock we headed outside to get some air before the rain came. The day turned out to be nicer than I had anticipated, which was a sweet surprise. At about eleven, I decided that burgers on the grill would really hit the spot. So I ran to town to grab some lettuce, a tomato, an onion, and some potato salad. Dylan grilled the burgers and we had an incredible lunch. We ate so much, we didn’t really eat too much the rest of the day.
The rain was supposed to come around 4, so we soaked up as much time outside as we could. When we came back in, it was naptime for Della… Dylan and I couldn’t resist either, so we all ended up taking about a two hour nap. When we all woke, we spent the evening not doing a whole lot at home.
It’s days like these that make me so thankful for the family that I have. We have moments where we’re all playing together and chasing each other around the house, and then there are other moments where Della is playing alone and contently with her toys, and Dylan and I are both off doing our own things as well. We mesh so well in our home to where we really do get the best of both worlds. I wouldn’t trade our lazy day Sundays for anything.
Della was sitting in my lap earlier today and I was thinking about how much I’m going to miss this someday. Someday she will be too big to fit on my lap, and our lazy day Sundays will change to days spent at home wondering if our teenage daughter is okay while she runs around with her friends. We won’t always be blessed with a full house, so I’m consciously trying to enjoy what I’ve got while I’ve got it.
I just put Della to bed. What a great day we had. It was a rainy day, but it was garagesale day in a town about a half hour from us. So we put on our boots and went out. Didn’t find a whole lot, but the experience was fun. I’m a sucker for a good garage sale.
I’m now laying on the couch relaxing. I just started the movie called ‘Dinosaur 13,’ which is based on the true story about the T-Rex named Sue. I’ve actually seen Sue one time at the museum in Chicago. I remember the awe and amazement I felt looking up at the huge, amazing creature. Can’t wait to hear the story behind her. I’ll make sure to write on this later.
Hi friends! I apologize for my lack of content here lately- it’s been a crazy few weeks! I have lots of small updates to share!
Our offer was accepted on a new home! We’re officially UNDER CONTRACT!! I can’t believe it. It’s been a long time coming. It’s exhausting looking at house after house with dying luck every time. I’ll make sure to write more on this soon!
The Easter holiday also took a lot of my attention. Friday I took Della and we went to Iowa to visit my sister. Unfortunately, on our way up there Della puked. I didn’t figure it was a bug, so we went to Iowa anyway. The next night after we got back from Iowa, I was puking. We ended up staying home all day on Sunday because I still wasn’t feeling well. By Sunday evening, Dylan was sick too and ended up calling into work on Monday. It went through the whole house. So I have been consumed with life lately, it seems. We hunted for eggs in the yard, dyed eggs, and gave Della an Easter basket. It was a good day at home even though I was exhausted.
I also got a very NÉW haircut!!
•• New feature! I started a photography portfolio on here and I plan to post some cool shots I take every once in awhile. I hope you guys enjoy this, since it’s an abstract look into a moment in my life.
When we were kids, my uncle would take all of us out to the garage to watch a big storm roll by. We just so happened to live south of what seemed to always be the path of the storms. So we would get our lawn chairs and flip cell phones out and have a fun night.
Times were so much more simple back then. We would laugh from the adrenaline running through our bodies – being so close to a storm yet so far away, you never know what could happen. We would gather around the weather radio and listen to where the rotation of a tornado was spotted. The garage was facing the right direction to see the storm go by and not have rain blowing in on you. There were no true worries back then. Those were the nights we were the closest. Those were the nights we came together. I wish I could get those childhood memories back. Now we’ve all grown up, split apart, and started our own families.
Tonight my own little fam sat in the garage and listened to the radio forecasts and watched the storm roll in. It was nothing too serious, but it did make me feel happy to share memories like this with the family I made. It connected me to my roots, and I’m thankful.
“I wish somebody would tell you you’re in the good ol’ days before you’ve actually left them.”
The temps have seemingly brought warmth that is here to stay. We spent a majority of the day “spring cleaning” the garage. It had an entire winter of piled up trash and dirt. We had cardboard from Christmas out there that was long overdue to be thrown away. Our daughter played while we cleaned, so it was a good day.
We wrapped up the night with cooking some ribeyes on the grill. I gave Della a bath and we snuggled up on the couch. Snuggles are hard to come by these days, so it had my heart full.
Dylan started a fire in the fire pit and he and some friends are outside drinking some beers. I’m exhausted so I’m on the couch watching old seasons of Survivor. I don’t imagine I’ll be awake too much longer.
It snowed almost all day today. It’s snowed on consecutive days this month more than I can remember. I remember by sophomore year of high school when we had a literal blizzard, but I can’t really remember when we got this much snow over an extended period of time. It had seemed like most of our winters had been pretty mild, but February has brought it on.
Not that I mind, though, because I think snow covered trees and landscapes are absolutely beautiful. I like playing in it and watching it fall. But I also love when it rains. Maybe I’m just an odd duck about these kinds of things. I was saying the other day how I can’t imagine living in a place where it does not snow.
Now I definitely prefer summer to winter, but I like a good snow in the winter time. I’m that person that looks forward to a white Christmas every year. I remember a couple years ago it was 65° on Christmas and I was dying in the yellow sweater I chose to wear that day. We opened our presents and went outside to play.
What an odd time in our lives.
How can anyone deny that climate change is a very real issue that we face today?
The sea level rises about an eighth of an inch every year.
The hurricanes have increased in strength and damages.
The summers are hotter and the seasons are shifting.
I really don’t know how anyone can deny these facts. They are literal facts of science. The world is crazy and everything is changing.
As for me, I’m going to enjoy the snow and hope that everyone with more power than I have realize the true dilemma we are facing today.
More snow is in the forecast tomorrow with temps only supposed to reach a high of 13°.