Another semester in the books

This summer I got the urge to continue pursuing my Bachelors. I’m so very close (2 semesters away) to accomplishing this goal; although much of my relationship with college has been where I wasn’t sure exactly what I wanted to do. I’ve taken plenty of time away from my schooling simply because I haven’t been certain on what I wanted to do. I wrapped up my prerequisite courses no problem, but since then I hadn’t been sure what I wanted to pursue until this semester.

I got online and looked at all of the online programs that were offered, because I’d done a semester of the Business Management program and found that it most definitely wasn’t exactly what I wanted. That was the Fall of 2019.

I decided to switch over to Public Administration, and now that the semester is over I can say that this certainly is more aligned with who I imagine myself to be in my career. Now exactly what I want to do in Public Administration is still undetermined, but I feel aligned – so that’s something at least. The program is so broad that I’m confident something will come to me once I finish my schooling.

But what makes me most proud about this semester is that I took on this goal knowing the obstacles I’d face. I knew I’d be giving birth to my second child, and yet I did not let that stop me.

I’m also proud of how self aware I was. The last semester I took at UIS was a complete failure. Mind you, I’ve always been a really good student and enjoyed school. So when I had to take a failing grade in a class during my last semester at UIS, I was a bit intimidated on if I could do it. If I couldn’t handle the workload back then, what made me think I could do it while also welcoming a new child? BUT the last semester I took I had a full course load with four classes on top of working full time and being a mother. This time, I knew I’d be setting myself up for failure if I took a full time college schedule on top of working full time, being pregnant, and a toddler at home. There were many days once we returned home from the hospital that I didn’t think I could do it. I was late on a few assignments, but I put the work in. I studied and read tons of material, wrote two term papers and achieved A’s in BOTH courses. I was aware that two classes was achievable, and I accomplished my goal – many times with a newborn baby sleeping on the couch next to me.

A testament to the dedication I have and how much I value being committed to your goals and dreams. It wasn’t much, but I’m super proud and excited for the progress!

Quick update

First things first, we are all well. I’m so very thankful for that.

I started back to work this week, so life is a bit more hectic on work days. My company has a “gradual return” policy, so I’m actually only working 2 days this week, 3 days next week, and then 3 days the week of Christmas. After that, it’s back to normal- as far as work goes… Very lucky to have this available to me because returning to work six weeks after having a child is low-key MOM ABUSE.

Squishy 💋

I’d say we are all adapting well to being a family of four. Della is obsessed with baby brother and Dylan is such a good dad.

All 4 of us at a winter festival – Peep lil Leon in the front 🥰

But with all that is good, it’s also so very stressful. As much as I love this life I’m so blessed with, I also struggle with an immense yearning for a life outside of motherhood. I wish I had more family that offered to help or just take the kids for a day. I will admit I’m very jealous of other moms that have support from their family. Not to say we don’t at times, but not nearly what I’d always expected or hoped for before I had kids…

Christmas is around the corner, so that’s always something to look forward to. This time of the year truly is the best and being a mom and bringing the light and joy of Christmas to my family is so very special to me. I’m planning to have a family Christmas photo shoot here soon- I will post when I get around to doing that 🤪

Until next time, stay safe & happy holidays!!

Everything is broken.

Not everything. But sometimes it feels like it.

Phone is broken. Laptop is broken.

I’m 9 months pregnant, so every part of my body feels broken.

Heh heh.

But really.

So for now I’m limited on what I can really post – I can’t type on my phone it’s so broken, let alone take any pictures. Things have been very simple around here and my onscreen time has gone down significantly.

But I’ve also really noticed how much of a tool I use my phone as.

I’m not talking about Facebook scrollin’, but I do keep my calendar in my phone updated. Other tools I use on my phone that I’m now really struggling without is the calculator and text messages. I keep a lot of lists and notes in my phone, too, so I’ve been walking around aimlessly it feels like.

How does anyone that works a regular full-time job have time to run any errands without using up personal time or vacation? I don’t have the time during the day to run to the cell store and get a new phone.

Looks like society is a bit broken, too.

Autumn Welcome

I love the fall. It’s the time of year that has the best weather and most fun activities. I’m a total autumn junkie – count me in for all of the fall activities. Pumpkin patches, bonfires, football games, hayrack rides, all of it.

So today the weather here in central Illinois is a bit cooler than it has been. Last week the heat index all week long was over 100 degrees. It’s currently 66. So I’m LOVING IT.

I know that there are some people out there that DO NOT want to welcome autumn the first week of September, but I wouldn’t mind if we welcomed it the first week of August! I’ve been trying to keep my excitement and desire for the new season at bay, because my fiancé likes to relish summer for as long as possible, but I’ve had my fall decor up for over a week now and I’ve already been to the store for some new candles. This morning I put my pumpkin scented wax melts in the burner and that combined with the cool air has me feeling SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD! I’ve also been cleaning the house today, so the level of comfort I’m in has me feeling so relaxed and energized at the same time, if that makes any sense. There’s just something about a clean house that cures my anxiousness and calms my nerves.

What kind of season lover are you? Do you hold onto summer for as long as possible, or do you jump into fall at the first opportunity?

My Thoughts on Afghanistan

13 American Servicemembers were killed last Thursday.

13 families’ lives changed forever.

I can’t really bring myself to come up with the right words to say because I am just so heartbroken. I can’t relate to going overseas, but I do remember what it was like to join the military.

The excitement for new opportunities and experiences.

The pride of serving a country that so many people love.

The smooth arrogance of feeling like people look up to you.

Every person that takes that oath, myself included, expects to come home in a casket with a flag draped over it.

I met some damn good people while in the military. I’m proud of the time I spent and the things I did. I could never imagine my story ending like this.

Neither did they.

And to have a president that didn’t protect them.

I’m angry. I am terribly sad. I am disappointed.

Unfortunately, I don’t think anyone will be held accountable for these 13 lives that should’ve never been lost.

I’ve looked through their pictures and read their families words about them. I feel as if it’s going to haunt me for quite some time. America just feels more and more hopeless these days.

We got two new kitties

I wrote a few weeks ago about the passing of our family member, “New Kitty.”

I’m writing today to introduce you to the two newest kitties we’ve welcomed to our family.

Meet Cornell,

and Minnie (Mouse)

Minnie is a bit younger than Cornell, as you can probably tell. She’s also a bit more reserved and relaxed; whereas Cornell is the one who runs through the house and plays with you and has a very funny personality. We’ve really fallen in love with both of them. Minnie Mouse is kind of Della’s buddy, and I absolutely adore Cornell.

They like to sleep in the bottom of my indoor fake potted tree… Together
She’s our quiet lil lady
He’s our funny goon
Cornell is also a bit easier to photograph

I’m a Fall LOVER

My birthday is in mid October, so naturally I love the fall season.

It’s my favorite time of the year to decorate the house, it comes with the best and most mild weather, and who doesn’t love fall football game or a weenie roast?

So yeah, I’m totally that person that wishes the end of the summer away. I’m definitely ready for the pumpkin spice and fall decor…

So I decided that today I would start my welcoming of fall by dying my hair back to the nice auburn color that I will wear the most. I think the red tint in my hair really brings out my freckles and it gives me the most confidence.

So hello fall. I am so ready for you. 🍂🍁

Work From Home Friday

I’m letting loose today and wearing my sweatpant overalls. They’re made out of stretchy material and they’re soo comfortable. I’m working from home today, so comfort is a necessity.

(And they even have pockets!!)

Know what else is a necessity when working from home?

Not doing anything with your hair.

Happy Friday!!