Today is different for everyone. I’m thinking about those of you feeling conflicted today. I’m thinking about those of you feeling mournful today. I’m thinking about those of you still holding onto hope today. I see you. I’m rooting for you. I’ve been you. 💘
It’s been awhile since I’ve been on WordPress. Not because I really needed a break, but because I’ve just been so busy and tired to sit on my phone and really put some thought into writing. I’d like to get back into more of a routine, but life is crazy and you never really know… Continue reading EOD Thoughts: 01.16.2021
My weeks are starting to feel longer. Each day of work is stagnant and uneventful and I’d even say they’re becoming mind numbing. No real thoughtful work. Just data entry. Every day. For weeks. Just eight hours of thoughtless data input and no responsibility or ownership of my tasks. I like the company I work… Continue reading EOD Thoughts: 11.19.2020
Tonight I want to get vulnerable with myself. I want to examine reality and determine what parts of it aren’t real. And since it’s part of my story, I think it’s important to share it all with you. I consider myself a writer. It’s something that I feel proud of myself as. But I’m not… Continue reading 30 Miles
My company has scaled back their return to office plan so instead of two days in office, I’m cutting it down to just one day in office. I could have chosen to go completely remote, but Mondays I have meetings that I would rather be there in person for. Not a whole lot new going… Continue reading EOD Thoughts: 11.10.2020
I was a hot head for a long time growing up. I think it had a lot to do with the resentment and uncertainty I had in the relationship I had (or lacked) with my mom. I often got in trouble well into my junior high years for hitting my siblings. I was angry and… Continue reading The Apology That Never Came
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I don't know how to love my mom. Or if I'm ever even going to be able to. Some people can easily let the words "I love you" spew from their mouth, but I have never been that kind of person. Of course I have no issue pulling my daughter or fiancee in for a… Continue reading Love is Hard
Mom, You've read my words on this blog and I've tried to explain the anger from my side, but I still have received no real apology or any comfort from the idea that you may be remorseful. Did you know that in three instances the way I found out you were going back to prison… Continue reading Did you know? Or did you just not care?
I have a hard time talking about my mom. Sometimes when I'm with friends I just want to sit and talk and talk about all of the good, the bad, and in-between. Tonight I found myself spewing random memories and feelings at some of the friends in my unit and I noticed when I said… Continue reading Letting Go of Anger