I feel like my life is stagnant.
I feel like I’m lacking something. I have so much to offer this world, but I feel like I’m being held back.
I have so many goals and dreams, but it always seems like I’m too poor to accomplish any of them. No money means no success around here.
Not sure how to dig myself out of this hole. I work my ass off but it never seems to be enough.
I won’t ever give up, but damnit, sometimes I feel like I’ll never be on top
I’m feeling stressed tonight.
I haven’t worked at my full-time job since April… Mainly in part because I spent two months of that time working at a coronavirus testing site, but I’ve been home on unemployment since the last week in June because my company’s volume is down 60% and there is not enough work to be done. I’ve enjoyed my time at home with my daughter more than anything, and my typical unemployment payments were covering the bills, the last few weeks they haven’t been paying out. So I’ve gone weeks without any income. The unemployment is so widespread in my state that when I call the office, I have to leave my phone number so that they can call me back when my name is next in line. The last time I tried to call this number, it took FOUR WEEKS for them to call me back. So I’m trying to wrap my head around the idea of going without income for 4-6 weeks. It’s a terrifying and stressful thought and I don’t know what on earth I would do if it was only up to me to pay the bills. I’m so thankful that Dylan and I are in this together and that we are so open and sharing with our money.
So I guess this comes down to transferring more money from my savings just to make it through…