Sometimes I feel like Iām the one that always has her shit together
But sometimes I just wanna lose control
I donāt wanna be responsible
I wanna be wild
I wanna be reckless
Iāve spent my whole life working my ass to prove to everyone that Iām not what I came from
That Iām put together
Accountable
Competent
Rational
But for just once
Iād like to make a little noise
Say what I think
Do what I want
Make messes
Not show up
Just be alone
But what does this say about me?
What does this mean?
I canāt help but wonder what Iāve been missing out on
I hardly learned lessons the hard way when I was young
Iām beginning to think I donāt know myself at all
Who is this woman who yearns for disruption
Yearns the chase
The uncertainty and unpredictability
For she is on the edge of a reckoning
And just wants a taste