Everything is broken.

Not everything. But sometimes it feels like it.

Phone is broken. Laptop is broken.

I’m 9 months pregnant, so every part of my body feels broken.

Heh heh.

But really.

So for now I’m limited on what I can really post – I can’t type on my phone it’s so broken, let alone take any pictures. Things have been very simple around here and my onscreen time has gone down significantly.

But I’ve also really noticed how much of a tool I use my phone as.

I’m not talking about Facebook scrollin’, but I do keep my calendar in my phone updated. Other tools I use on my phone that I’m now really struggling without is the calculator and text messages. I keep a lot of lists and notes in my phone, too, so I’ve been walking around aimlessly it feels like.

How does anyone that works a regular full-time job have time to run any errands without using up personal time or vacation? I don’t have the time during the day to run to the cell store and get a new phone.

Looks like society is a bit broken, too.

Autumn Welcome

I love the fall. It’s the time of year that has the best weather and most fun activities. I’m a total autumn junkie – count me in for all of the fall activities. Pumpkin patches, bonfires, football games, hayrack rides, all of it.

So today the weather here in central Illinois is a bit cooler than it has been. Last week the heat index all week long was over 100 degrees. It’s currently 66. So I’m LOVING IT.

I know that there are some people out there that DO NOT want to welcome autumn the first week of September, but I wouldn’t mind if we welcomed it the first week of August! I’ve been trying to keep my excitement and desire for the new season at bay, because my fiancé likes to relish summer for as long as possible, but I’ve had my fall decor up for over a week now and I’ve already been to the store for some new candles. This morning I put my pumpkin scented wax melts in the burner and that combined with the cool air has me feeling SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD! I’ve also been cleaning the house today, so the level of comfort I’m in has me feeling so relaxed and energized at the same time, if that makes any sense. There’s just something about a clean house that cures my anxiousness and calms my nerves.

What kind of season lover are you? Do you hold onto summer for as long as possible, or do you jump into fall at the first opportunity?

My Thoughts on Afghanistan

13 American Servicemembers were killed last Thursday.

13 families’ lives changed forever.

I can’t really bring myself to come up with the right words to say because I am just so heartbroken. I can’t relate to going overseas, but I do remember what it was like to join the military.

The excitement for new opportunities and experiences.

The pride of serving a country that so many people love.

The smooth arrogance of feeling like people look up to you.

Every person that takes that oath, myself included, expects to come home in a casket with a flag draped over it.

I met some damn good people while in the military. I’m proud of the time I spent and the things I did. I could never imagine my story ending like this.

Neither did they.

And to have a president that didn’t protect them.

I’m angry. I am terribly sad. I am disappointed.

Unfortunately, I don’t think anyone will be held accountable for these 13 lives that should’ve never been lost.

I’ve looked through their pictures and read their families words about them. I feel as if it’s going to haunt me for quite some time. America just feels more and more hopeless these days.

We got two new kitties

I wrote a few weeks ago about the passing of our family member, “New Kitty.”

I’m writing today to introduce you to the two newest kitties we’ve welcomed to our family.

Meet Cornell,

and Minnie (Mouse)

Minnie is a bit younger than Cornell, as you can probably tell. She’s also a bit more reserved and relaxed; whereas Cornell is the one who runs through the house and plays with you and has a very funny personality. We’ve really fallen in love with both of them. Minnie Mouse is kind of Della’s buddy, and I absolutely adore Cornell.

They like to sleep in the bottom of my indoor fake potted tree… Together
She’s our quiet lil lady
He’s our funny goon
Cornell is also a bit easier to photograph

I’m a Fall LOVER

My birthday is in mid October, so naturally I love the fall season.

It’s my favorite time of the year to decorate the house, it comes with the best and most mild weather, and who doesn’t love fall football game or a weenie roast?

So yeah, I’m totally that person that wishes the end of the summer away. I’m definitely ready for the pumpkin spice and fall decor…

So I decided that today I would start my welcoming of fall by dying my hair back to the nice auburn color that I will wear the most. I think the red tint in my hair really brings out my freckles and it gives me the most confidence.

So hello fall. I am so ready for you. 🍂🍁

Work From Home Friday

I’m letting loose today and wearing my sweatpant overalls. They’re made out of stretchy material and they’re soo comfortable. I’m working from home today, so comfort is a necessity.

(And they even have pockets!!)

Know what else is a necessity when working from home?

Not doing anything with your hair.

Happy Friday!!

The Circle of Life

We are mourning the loss of our loved kitty friend today.

Before we moved into our new home, we made an unexpected friend on one of our evening family walks. This friendly gray and white kitten came right up to Della and begged her for love. Their friendship blossomed instantly and he followed us home. He was part of the family from day one. Della and “New Kitty” ran up and down the sidewalk, he’d get in her little play tent and just lay there while she contently played.

We brought New Kitty (This is the name our daughter gave him) with us on the move to the new house and he transitioned quite nicely. Last week Della had him in her room covered up with a doll blanket as he napped peacefully. He would let her pick him up and tote him around. He was VERY tolerable of a two year old girls’ love, if ya know what I mean.

We have noticed two big dogs running loose through town a few times in our neighborhood. Of course, we are still learning the community routines and neighbors. Part of being in a new town. We always left kitty out overnight and he slept safely in the garage. We’d leave the garage door open just enough for him to barely make it under. We knew there would be no way for these dogs to get under the door, so we figured kitty would have a safe place if needed.

I guess these dogs just caught him at the wrong place.

Dylan and I actually got a night out together without Della for the first time in a long while. We went to local fair and enjoyed some fair food and a tractor pull.

As we were pulling up to our house at about 10pm, we saw these two dogs playing tug of war with an animal. We soon realized it was our baby. It was absolutely traumatizing and I am so heartbroken. I’m thankful we didn’t have Della with us in the car. I put the car in park in the middle of the road and ran out to the poor kitty. The dogs ran off. Initially, I thought he was going to be okay and that maybe the dogs had just barely gotten ahold of him. Everything happened so fast, I’m still not even sure what I saw.

So I was checking him out and he didn’t have any puncture wounds or obvious external injuries and he was looking at me. I thought I could take him in for a bath and assess the situation a little better, but he started to seize and then he was gone. I am happy to say that I was holding him and talking to him and comforting him in his last moments.

But I can’t forget the way his eyes changed as the life came out him. Although it was just a cat, it’s a very humbling experience. Life comes and goes so quickly.

Cherish those you love while you have the chance to. We are heartbroken our daughter has lost her pal.

RIP, New Kitty

I took this seven hours before his death. We will miss the happiness he brought our family
Playing in the tent

Grief

I saw a post on Facebook today that said,

“Grief isn’t just for death.

It’s also for

Friendships that have ended,

Losing your community,

Missing the certainty you once had,

Questioning your judgment,

Releasing who you once were,

Feeling lost and unanchored,

Losing traditions you loved”

………………..

How true. Many of these are buried deep inside of me. Many things I grieve for in this life. I think our world should be reminded of this message, as our entire world is so far from how it used to be. It’s okay to feel uneasy in your core. And it’s okay to name that feel as grief, it describes so much more than the loss of someone. Own your feelings and work through them at your own pace.